Marriage...

"Marriage isn't always easy".

It's a common thing married people say when you are about to get married. It's a ridiculous understatement!!! People don't tell you how frustrating your wonderful spouse can be. They forget to mention how many times you will question if this was a mistake. They don't tell you about the times they want to get away, but since you now live together you can't just go home. They don't mention the times you will just want to cry and scream because of something your spouse does. Or how annoying even the smallest things can be now that you are living with this person 24/7.

But they also don't tell you about the way your spouse will look at you. The way you will feel when you feel their warmth lying next to them in bed. They keep quiet about the times they smile together, all the times they laugh together. They never mention the pride that comes when things get worked out.

So today was a test of what Jason and I have. We fought and felt frustrated with one another. I'm still feeling anger and hurt...but we made a life long commitment. We are "stuck" together! I think this fight will make us stronger together! I want to become the woman of God I was created to be and part of that is being the wife I am supposed to be. So I will strive to be better...