The journey...

So...we are looking for somewhere to live. I am trying to continue trusting that God has this home somewhere that He is preparing and He is working on the hearts of the people we will be working with to get it. This journey so far has not taken us anywhere, but there has to be a home for my family somewhere. I get frustrated because we were so close to buying a home. We found some places we were super interested in and my credit is good, but it being our first home we have to have a co-signer. Now don't get me wrong, I am not angry or upset about any of this, but lucky us, both of our parents have gone through foreclosures. So, we are left at square 1. We still can't get a house. I am so grateful to my parents for letting us crash at their home, and it has been great getting to be here during this time of having a new baby and Jason starting a new job. I have had many people to help during what could have been a really hard time. So, I know God has been looking out for us, but it is time for our family to be just us. Xoe needs her own space and I want to be the woman of the house and Jason needs to be the man of our house. So...we wait. I feel like that's all we ever do...wait.

Rainy Days

So rainy days give you time to think and want to be lazy. Today has definitely been one of those days. I guess Xoe felt the same way. She slept a lot today. As for me, I did a lot of just laying around. It was a nice day to relax...but I felt kinda yucky. Been kinda worried about Xoe's progress with her torticollis, we are trying to buy a house (if we can get a co-signer), we are working through marriage (which has been harder with Jason's new job), we are planting a church, trying to get through school, etc. So today was a nice break to just sit around and watch a lifetime movie and relax. These kinda days don't happen for me anymore as a mom...so it was such a great day! But these rainy days make me feel blue. No particular reason...just yucky and gross outside brings out gross feelings in me! Hopefully soon the sun will come back out so we can get outside and be happy!!

Friends

Alright...this post is to all my friends...though you are one of the few!!

I keep my friends close. I don't have a lot of people I call friends simply because you must be really worth it to me for me to call you that. You must be someone I can rely on, someone who doesn't get angry at the fact that it takes me forever to get back to people, someone who understands that my life is hectic and sometimes friends tend to fall to the wayside when I am worried about my marriage, my baby, school, etc., and just someone who is kind and loving. I have had the gossip friends, I have had the funny friends, I have had the shallow friends, but at this point in my life, I'm really trying to choose wisely. I want people who can encourage me, people who support and understand me.

All of this to say, to those few who I call my true friends, thank you for who you are. I know I am so blessed to have people who I can trust and count on to be there for me, and after having Xoe, that group has shifted and grown! I'm excited for what the future holds for my life and our friendships!!! :)